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I don't know what's going on anymore.

I'm sorry for disappearing, but my family has essentially turned itself upside down in a matter of weeks.

I can't even think.

This summer is a whirl of tears and crushing humidity.

I've pushed so many people away.  I feel guilty for wanting things.  I feel guilty a lot.

I've retreated so far inside my mind that I'm paralyzed.

Analysis paralysis.

Too many decisions, and I can't move forward.  My legs won't take me.

I'm waiting for some sort of sign from the universe that I know will never come.

Because that's my problem, I wait too long for life to happen, not realizing that life is now.

And I know, I know I need to push myself.

No more excuses.

So please, please realize this.

I'm saying this both to myself, and all of you out there that will read this:

• Do not wait, that day will never come-it is NOW
• If you are not scared, humiliated, embarrassed, making mistakes and failing, you are not LIVING
• There is not enough time to worry about what other people think of you, besides, they are far too busy thinking about themselves.
• Live for you, and the rest will come.