i have three months of school left
that is it that is all

i need the sun to come back out and shine on my face
i am a summer baby, after all
i can't flourish in this cold climate

i'd like to move somewhere where it isn't winter half the year
where i can have a wardrobe that consists solely of dresses
and i can ride my bicycle everywhere
and walk barefoot
but i would miss my family too much
and besides, it can be quite beautiful here too:
the northern lights, the evergreens, the rolling plains
the wild wildness of it all

change is all i need
just a little bit of change

I hope you've all had the merriest of holidays and are stuffed full of chocolates and candy canes and other goodies galore!

I am sorry i have been gone away for so long. Like a few other ladies around here, I am starting to consider switching over to a Tumblr. It has just been a thought swimming around my head lately, as I seem to never have the time to put in to a full blog post, especially since my last term of school is near-four more months and I am graduated and free of college!

After that I am not sure what I will do. Everything is wide open I suppose, and I would really like to travel the world, work here-and-there, take photographs and write.

I've been trying to focus on being happy alone lately: writing, reading, taking pictures, dancing, going out with new friends. I've really started to come out of my shell over the past two years I have been in college, and I think that if that is the only thing I take away from the experience, then I think it was life-changing. I may not end up 'using' my diploma, but I am just now realizing how much I have truly learned and changed because of the experience.

I never, ever thought that I could even semi-escape my nerves, my anxiety and my extreme shyness, but here I am, and I am happy. I am still working on it every day, but I am just a tad more hopeful.

I am still a silly romantic, waiting and wishing for Love, and when it does come (for I know in my heart of hearts that it will), I hope that I am truly happy and in love with myself first and foremost.

I have faith that my life will take me in the direction that I am meant to go, and I am working to make every day more magical.

There is a big world out there to hold and embrace and run free with. Know that things get better, and that you are not alone.

Hold your magic in your heart and never let it go.


xx

Sara

my name is sara and i am a dreamer
mostly i keep to myself
sometimes this makes me happy; and other times it makes me sad
i have a dreamcatcher that hangs above my bed, and yes, i believe it works
i am awkward in public
i talk, sing and giggle to myself
and i believe in fairies and unicorns and narnia and love
i prefer being barefoot
but i have a collection of pretty shoes
i have never been in love, but i am in love with everything
i talk to the trees and the wind
and spend more time in the forest alone than i probably should
when i go swimming in a lake, i recite quotes aloud:

"The point of diving in a lake is not immediately to swim to the shore but to be in the lake, to luxuriate in the sensation of water. You do not work the lake out; it is an experience beyond thought."

i buy lots of journals, because the thought of blank paper excites me
they remain empty, because it seems wrongs to ruin their stark white perfection
i like abandoned places, but am afraid of abandonment
but i, we, us
mustn't be afraid
because there is much, so much to do, see, hear, touch, feel
BE


xxx

i would like to say thank you for all the beautiful comments everyone left on the last post. i cannot even express how much better they made me feel. i love you all ♥



xx always,
sara

hello swallows
how are you all doing?
i hope you are all having the loveliest and magical of times ♥

i am immensely stressed over school right now. i've pretty much decided (with only a term and a half left of school) that i am not happy with my chosen profession (librarian). i am quite bored and uninterested in fact. why must these things be so hard and confusing? i wish i could just wake up one day and have an epiphany about what i should do with my life. i know that i am probably making a big deal over nothing, and that everything will likely fall into place, but right now it feels terrible and i am genuinely unhappy.

are any of you in a similar situation right now? or have been in the past?

all i want to do right now is live. it's hard for me to imagine graduating this year at only 20, and having to immediately find a job in an area that i've decided isn't for me. i am not someone who is willing to give in to a life of service so easily. maybe i am someone who is better off doing their own thing. owning a little shop, freelance photography, designing, creating, whatever.

i want to travel, and experiment, and take photos, and make things, and be inspired, and meet lovely people, and dance and laugh and live

why is this so frowned upon by society?

it's my life and i want to live it for goodness sakes!


sorry for being so darn dramatic

xx always,

sara

How are you dears? Life has been very busy busy now that I am back in school, but I am in love with the autumn weather we are having here, and that almost makes up for it. I have been spending days in forests hunting for acorns and feathers, and reading jane eyre and the blue castle, and watching movies. i wish we had a fireplace that i could drink cocoa by on the cold nights though.

How to Live Magically

• let your hair grow long and unruly
• wear flower crowns
• tie ribbons on your wrists
• wears bells on your ankles
• wear a key to your heart around your neck
• lie in fields of wildflowers
• climb trees and read books in them
• hand write letters to friends
• go looking for fairies and build fairy houses
• make friends with trees-tell them your secrets
• drink lots and lots of tea
• light candles at night
• gaze out open windows
• listen to dreamy music and dance around
• go dancing in the rain
• run into lakes wearing pretty dresses
• plant a garden of vegetable and wildflowers
• have a picnic on the countryside
• learn to play an instrument (piano,ukulele,banjo,guitar)
• wear vintage nightgowns as dresses
• string fairy lights in your room
• make someone a batch of cookies
• make a teepee
• collect seashells
• have tea parties
• dress up victorian style
• frame vintage photos
• press wildflowers
• spend days in libraries
• don't be afraid of who you are

a little list i made. i like to make lists.
and here is my kitty showing off for the camera

what are your favourite things about autumn?


sara

xx

tying pink tulle bows
rainbows during sun showers
finding fairy stones on the beach (if you peer through the hole it's said you'll see fairyland)
bluebells at sunset

i've just realized, i haven't had a haircut in almost 3 years
maybe i feel like cutting it will mean something

things i've been loving:

♥ this post at the loverly Gala Darling. if you are one of the unlucky few that hasn't stumbled upon her site you simply must take a look

♥ Cannelle et Vanille: best foodie site ever. with the most delectable photos as well

♥ Dujour Mag. a must for every starry-eyed dreamer

♥ this bag from Cath Kidston

oh, and this cinema bag



♥ this video

Sweet Child from Claudia Susana on Vimeo.

i think i might start up 'nuit blanche' homework fridays again
we shall see


love always,

sara
xx

little birds i am sorry for being gone so long
but mostly sorry for not commenting on all of your lovely posts
and they truly were lovely
sorry sorry sorry

autumn is in the air but i will sadly miss summer
i will go for one last swim this weekend
i don't care how cold it is

i've started school again and i've turned 20
20 is a scary age
i don't know how i feel about it
my teen years are gone and i don't think i made the most of them
but i guess i have a fresh new decade to change things

i feel like i am moving slower than everyone around me:
like i will always be terrified of driving
never know what i want to do with my life
never go out like other girls
never find a nice boy

-i must be more positive-

i hope you are all well and enjoying the end of summer (or winter)


Love Always,

Sara